Bon Voyage!

I finally could word out these emotions that I'd had bottled up for so long. So many times have I opened my blog with the emotions ready to go, but I had to shut it back again because I just didn't know how. That morning I was on the metro station when it hit me. The words started to come out and I just floated along. 

I have said goodbye to people many times. There are two that have marked me so far.

The first let me disoriented, but free. I felt as if I had removed the shackles, and the time I had afterwards was very happy. I've never gotten as connected to myself and my relatives as at that time. 

The second one is you. Getting over you has been the hardest thing to do. I don't know why exactly because in my mind is clear why things got finished. I also have a clear memory of those things I didn't like about you... Things that constantly made me wonder if I had made the right choice with you while still being together. So, I don't even know why I miss you... Or What I miss about you, for that matter. 

Maybe, it's all the dreams I had when I met you, that I thought I could fulfill with you next to me. And I think so because I never had those dreams with anyone else. 

It's been already 5 months since things ended, and even though I feel better overall, at times I feel as I did the very first week that all this hit me, that you and I were lost. And so, again, I crawl back to being alone, my guitar and Music. 

I write you this because I could finally word my heart out. I'm not saying this because I can't get over you, but because I feel that by this I have already started to. 

Everything I wrote about and for you stands. I will not delete any of it. I won't because what I offered you was honest and real and I will respect the energy, the time, and the love I invested in the two of you. And just to be clear, there wasn't the least shade of sadness while I was writing this. So, know that if I was saying goodbye, it was in a good spirit.

Have a good life. I promise mine will be a wonderful one.